KAY.T.MAFIA

MisH u kuTtY.........

2010-05-28T14:50:00.000-07:00

Its been almost a month now........

its has been quite since.......

my phone seems lifeless which it use to be on the 24 hours....

things are very different now da.......everybody seems to be changing....

the only person i trusted ws u............but now even u left me to be with the gods.....

how selfish can i be to keep an angel down here with me.!

u deserve to be up there..........its jz dat i got no one to talk to......

the ppl i trusted the most turning their back against me......

i ws so confident cause i had my shivu kutty...............but now...

i noe somewhere up there...u r looking at me n smiling.......

i reli mish u syng.....

i dunno whether i can continue like this or not......ppl might say i'm goin mad...

but u noe wut da, i dun reli care........eventhough i can;t see u....i noe u r beside me...wherever i go...haha....

no matter how old i grow.......its jz that...i dun understand how cruel god can be.....he gives us something so precious n so wonderful......n he takes it back....

we al miss u da........whenever the sun goes down.....the moonlight shines....

i see u high up in the sky shinning lik a diamond...........

hope the gods are taking care of u...........

they betta be........

R.I.P

In Loving Memory of my

shivu kutty.....

I wIsH u WeRe MiNe............

2010-05-06T10:33:00.000-07:00

Dear baby gal,

i know u must be thinking this guy is such an idiot?? what is he thinking??

well the truth is...i i think about i you.........

i dunno wut to do........wut more can i do........

ur love for him is way beyond me....
i know it.......
i can't be jealous of coz.....................but its jz not right,
something is wrong somewhere.......
whenever u say u miss him,
it pricks me that the amount of love u have for him...he's always been there sweetheart, with u in ur heart, no matter wut people say...u can't throw him.....
i know how much he matters to u, n i dun care wut ppl got to say bout tis....its between the three of us, my love is not limited towards u, u noe
besides the fact i'm in love wit u, i in love wit ur dreams, ur joy, ur sorrow, ur pain, ur gain,

UR LOVE.....

u of al people should understand how i feel......it jz hurts hearing me telling that u r hurt and it pains inside u.......i can't bear this any longer.....i would neva let u suffer nor get hurt again by any means.........

i'm jz so sorry i'd entered ur life........things would hav seen less complicated......things are so difficult for u now....

baby, i promise u....things will be better........thats my word for u sweetheart
i'm so sorry i made things complicated....i'm so sorry i made u cry....i'm sorry i din make ur day....
i guess u would be the last gal in my life if things dun work out properly...

how could i fall in love again...????

i'm jz sad bout the fact that u were not mine for me to get hold of u.......

"U PPL OUT THER..SHE'S NOT A TOY TO MESS AROUND WIT HER FEELINGS!"
"SHE AIN'T NO TOY.!"

i dunno wut am i thinking ryte now.....

"now hush lil baby dun u cry, everythings gonna be alryte....."~eminem(mocking bird)

exactly wuts running in ma head........now u need to focus on ur goal....n i promise u things will work out jz fine sweetheart.....

i promise.............. love u da

a leader in me.........

2010-05-01T10:52:00.001-07:00

i'll still love u................idiot

2010-04-03T09:01:00.000-07:00

a lost path............

2010-03-26T10:50:00.000-07:00

its not the same anymore i guess..........well, u can expect more than wut u can get...dats called greediness......at times i use to wonder.....where did i go wrong showing love towards u......haha....well maybe it wsn't enuf i guess.....gave every possible thing i could......i dun wan u to realise in future dat u lost wut u always wanted...n i neva want that to happen to u...........listen to ur heart....pursue it.....n dun regret....as for me....i'll be fine......hahaha....its funny how i'm getting used to a broken heart.......its neva been fixed after all.........its jz dat...i'm already numb.....i noe u gonna say i'm n idiot....n yes i am one.....i dun need ppl to tell how much i care for u n love u.....as u should already noe......its jz dat....i'm jinxed to love...... whoever i like, i end up hurting myself...i'm not asking a replacement............as no one can replace u......i'm jz hurt dats al......dun worry bout me......i'll do fine......its k i'm not urs now........pls gimme a chance to be.....if i'm born again.....u took away my love, if u would have asked.....i would have given my life...........nvm....can change the truth nah......truth hurts does it............i wanted to stay away from tis...dats y i avoided u....coz i noe....u'll get confuse easily......haha...u neva listen will u......but its k......

i guess.........my chapter ends here in ur life book........

i LoVe YoU

2010-01-24T20:15:00.000-08:00

Many say love is blind.....i say love gives u a clearer vision about achieving........its been a while now since i heard ur voice da....its been hard for the both of us trying to achieve our goals of life...trying to satisfy the community and the world........

well i'm against the world.....

dunno whether i'm saying these jz to calm myself or jz to get things right on track......the day i saw u..i made a vow.....a vow to love u, to stand by ur side, to be there for u..... u wanted to achieve ur dream...well wut more can i say, ur dream is mine too...isn't it..??

the moments we spent together was so beautiful.....i dunno whether u still remember the time we made havoc in the theaters, we laugh lik mad....we use to say things at the same time.weird na.....was fun...drama's in sunway, accidents, our first kiss, ............u really turned my world......a changed person i was...haha..was a great time...u were my friend.....my mother...my everything...we use to have hell lots of secrects na.?

Time....haha...time is a healer.....well maybe...maybe not...it depends on how we take it...its actually us the one heals our own soul...wen we are capable to let things out of our mind, we hav the same capability to keep it........i want to keep her in me.....

u were very different from any other girls i saw throughout my life....u were filled with ur own ideas n perception.....u were independent jz lik my mother...u had ur own attitude which made me go crazy....ur smile was meant to mealt many...... am i superman to repel such powers......i fell for you.... as in i was superman n u were my kryptonite (google it).....its funny how things end up after al...... din want it to end tis way.....maybe it was suppose to be....

some may ask me....y is she so selfish..?? she wants the best for her life...y r u getting on her way...the problem is its not her fault at al.....ppl may say things......but they are not living ur life....she went through hell b4 meeting me....cried n dried her tears with a wounded heart......her cries were ignored...wut did she do to deserve this....she suffered enough....she does not deserve to suffer again...human emotions can go to a certain extend but it has limits.....she needs to be pampered n treated well.....

she a very beautiful girl...very smart, sexy in her own way...eventhough she denies it...haha....inteligent n very naughty...........i really do miss her.....miss her shouting my ears off if i dun go for classes...cute arguments.......long hours on the phone.....discussing about our future..plans after plans.....things were fine actually.....................well i've got no comments for Mr. Fate, u son of a @%!$%........... U GOT NO GOD DAMN RIGHTS TO TREAT HER THIS WAY............!

i noe dat day wen i called u, i may hav said things i didn't mean to....i hurt ur feelings too...it makes me one of them rite sayang.....but i ws so hurt n i............sorry.. u r sick listening to these words nah....spare me will u...haha jz kiddin.... a jerk i was.... damn me..

u were always special to me....u crazy girl.......

Sweetheart, i've always been there for u....i dunno whether u felt it or not....but u couldn't had lied to me.......i noe u loved me...u still do....

i sacrificied my love for ur ambition.....hell yeah u have to fly abroad ok..!! u study smart....make me proud......i won't go anywhere...i'm here...

remember the time u ask me to promise u.......i keep my words....

no matter where u are..who u are.... i'll do anything to get u back in my life...i swear i'll come in ur life n sweep u off ur feet again......the words u uttered when u said u dun love me......its a lie....

baby i noe i'm there...u r jz ignoring me....its ok... u are doing this al for us....i'm not telling my love is the greatest in the world nor am i the guy whom sacrificed his love...

i'm jz a normal guy.....who yearns his love back......i want u back in any means.....i want to wrap you around my arms again....i wan to see u smile again....i wan to kiss u again......i loved u crazily...guess wut i'm still crazy bout you........

promise me u'll come back to me once u get wut u wanted...... i'll be there, waiting in the airport....for you.........

p/s i love you baby boo...........

Its that time of the year again........

2009-12-29T08:43:00.000-08:00

Countdown all over the world begins......all over the continents, guys, girls kids n elderly couples eagerly await for the time to strike twelve.....painted face....funny glasses.....jz brings out the excitment in everyone.....the thing is the growing anxiety in everybody awaits as the countdown begins...10....9....8......7......5....

but before that.....jz pause there for a second...lets recap...how wonderful 2009 ws..wut can u say..u had a hell'of a year...but c'mon seriously......jz try to remember...how ws january.....wut u hav went through....

for me...new year ws celebrated in Kem Kisana Beach resort wer i had to perform my National Service stint...haha..wut a new year..but it ws a pretty good start....vowed to myself with many new year's resolution...(as if)

haha.....got my results...came back with my head bald...applied for MMU..b4 i could knew it..its my first day into University...things were so different back when i'm a freshie....

Now.....jz say out my name in MMU..(cheh perasan) he3....

al those public holidays past by....skool days frens framed into beautiful memories..deepavalli ws fun....typical family time.....

meet the girl of my dreams...baby boo.... i love u so much manggo...

xmas past by.....haha..can u believe it..... dayum! its already year end.....2009. My 2009 has its own sweet n sour but it ws seriously a memorable year...might be unlucky to some...but its up to u to make it a lucky year.....

nah! dun worry....jz sit back n relax wit a glass of beer a start the countdown..!! when u wake up the next morning its still the same morning...but....its rock tis new year eve..!!!its bloody 2010..tens bloody years since the millenium......

lets say good-bye 2009 and HELLO 2010..!!!!!

happy new year u guys....n u my baby boo...

LoVe Of My LiFe.................

2009-12-16T09:37:00.001-08:00

she the love of my life.....came into my life...swept me off my feet.....the most beautiful thing brahma created for me......my shivu baby...she my love..my life my everything.....

p.s baby...i love u cho much......we meet 5 months ago...got to noe her through my close my, saktish...haha...should thank dat bagger...neways...as i ws saying..spending time wit her jz makes me wannakiss my mum to thank her bringin me into tis world.....a wonderful and caring person...it'll oni take a glance for her to make friends...ppl would jz love to talk to her....haha......

i jz wanna promise u one thing baby....... i will take care of u becoz u r my world....
the best thing about me is YOU.......

mafia is back......

2009-12-16T09:13:00.000-08:00

its been a year since i've updated my blog...my god....neway..things are been good in me...in

University, moving up to 2nd semester.. great ppl around me.....my love of my life...well its been

gud year..2009 is coming to an end..its been a great here....u'll be hearing from me soon since

my baby provoked me to continue my blog......love u baby...

-peace out guys-

M.A.F.I.A is back in town............!

trg eligable bachelors.......

2009-05-11T11:05:00.000-07:00

last few days in trg........

2009-05-11T10:50:00.000-07:00

damn....its been a while since i've blogged....ws bloody bz wit my university's affairs..
at last i tried to cut loose myself..u noe, relax bit..ws so fucked up lar...
spent my time enjoying trg...
drivin around town...gonnha miss so many things...kerepok lekor, my skool, childhood buddies, trg chicks....haiz..darn....gonna miss de two devils at home..mum dad....

neway...coming to de point....me n my cousins had a small party jz to chill out before julia(exchange student)leaves to her homeland...but it turn out to be heck of a great time...HELL YEAH...!!! I FINSHED 2 BOTOLS OF VODKA PLUS THREE GLASS OF BEER...DAMN.!!!
it ws gud...can't forget de moments...

here r some shots dat were taken without our knowledge......

bloody traffic........

2009-04-08T06:46:00.000-07:00

so damn blardy irritated wit de traffic in kay tee....

arrgghhh....nowadays so malas wan take car out....

de *** hole drivin lik his grandfather road......

hehehe...but de best part was a maly chick beside my car....

heheh...nicely cuci mata ridy....

heheh.....

today's HEADLINE ....he3.. beach soccer tournament !

2009-04-03T04:37:00.000-07:00

here arr some pics i ws albe to take....tot of blogging it.......

3rd april 2.30 a.m started cleaning ma room...mop upsatirs, den was doin some wardrobe cleanin...owww...it ws seriously damn ****ing tiring lar.....so fucked up...den suddenly....a msg came in....loga my fren reminded me about de tournament will be held in de morning....iws lik shit.>!! wut de hell...? how can i forget...damn lar...i ws lik so tired...terus go baring dy...too hot ridy....haiz...i put alarm.....sharp 6.05 a.m wic ws 4 hours plus ltr...woke up...did wut suppose to be done wen ppl wake up....my sis ws studyin...suprisingly...told her to make coffee....slowly got into my car....started de engine...to a slow drive to town...den i went to my suraj's hse to fetch dat arse...dat idiot dun wan pick up my fon oso.... waited waited..den oni dat 'YB' comin.......haiz...

went for breakfast, din eat much ...were talkin bout skool life al lar...den we went to de event place...den oni we knew dat de organisers oso not dat...haiz...
we did some warmin up near de beach....

seriously u guys should hav been ther...such a beautiful moment....

den all team members came...mydin had 2 teams,

UMT made 3 teams,

locals did 3 teams,

so we had 8 teams n divided into 2 groups.....ours was name..'REAL FC' HE3...

den we discussed...our main focus ws to get pass de group stage....wasn't dat easy...we had challenging teams...but den wut de hack lar......!!!

so we played...!!!! lik brazillians...he3 on de hot sun all...luckily de weather ws damn fine..!...last year ws worst man..!

we only had to win 2 mathes n 1 draw to qualify or 3 straight wins..........!!!!!!!!!

den it went all lar...
first match we won 4-2, second was 2-0, den 1-0, den 1-1.....so we......?

QUALIFIED LAR....HAIYO....

he3..wen went semi-s den we got through by winning penalty kick 3-2.....

final ws de tough wan lar....but WE MADE IT TO DE FINALS..!!!!!!!!

anyway game carried on 10 minutes aside....ended up in penalty shots..................!!!??????

GUESS WUT....

WE LOST HE3.....GOT 1ST RUNNERS-UP.....

HAIZ MY TEAMMATES WE BIT DISSAPOINTED THOUGH WEL....theres always win or lose in a game rite...

we took it cool n accepted it lik a true sportsman...

well at least we got into de finals...
can't rite tooo much lar..leg al damn pain..n tired...

My PaRt CoNtRiBuTing FOR de earth hour..!!!!!

2009-03-28T07:56:00.000-07:00

All de fuzz...media's attettion on gettin de world together on a global event which was de earth hour...it ws where we hav to participate n switch off our lights from 8.30 -9.30...suprisingly..my whole family ws excited bout it...especially my youngest sister...haiyo..she lar paling semangat go register al...but candle...even my grandparents..actually kena explain to dem a bit lar..dey wer blur..but dey oso semangat dy...juz de few of my ulu neighbours din take part oso..especially de idiot next door who put music loud al...i think de fella gila dy lar...den...i ws sleepin u noe....my sister i tell u haio...devil oso can kalah lar...she n her frens doing as if they are saving de earth oni..u al tau kan budak kechik....i oso woke up..mkn al...den started de countdown....den we turned of de lightshaiyo i tell u arr..i ws rottin lik hell it ws so damn hot...it ws so hot until i had to.......censored...he3...nola..but it ws fun...kabhy ws lik takin pic in de dark...i dunno y de hell she takin pics in de dark n kenot see anything....

dad ws lik checkin de gate always scared pencuri will masuk ke...i dunno lar he....he;ll always think al de negatives outcomes one...in ode other hand comes in very helpful sometimes...den mum ws lik so happy she start calling her frens n telling dat she she's taking part al...but i tel u. her frens al damn smart...al off deir home lights but went out sitting in de restaurant....haiyo....ladies are...dencame my grandparents who were practically doin nothin at dat moment but dey enjoyed seeing my sisters fightin over a candle..........

as for me....... i sat in my room on my phone's songs.....listening quietly....in the dark...i dunno y i always hav tis urge of being alone....i always liked being alone n enjoying de moments....

i ws enjoying it until my unfortunately devil...which is my sister came knockin n disturbing me...den 1 big argument lar.....!!! haiyo...den i giv up dy lar....

waited......9.15.....

waited.......9.20...

waited.......925............

den sharp 9.30.......we on al de lights ha3.......

my god...dunno y but it ws kinda fun actually...u may call me childish but i call it a lifetimes experience.....
getting invovle in something big, internationally n noble makes me proud.....being a malaysian n a human being.........

think who's gonna save de earth if its not us.......

ThInKiN BoUt My FuTuRe.......

2009-03-27T09:17:00.000-07:00

the breeze..........................

i ws jz lookin at de sky n suddenly something popped out of ma head bout my future n all de stuffs..so i tot...y shouldn't i blog bout it...!!!

Life for me has not been easy for me lately....since my

form five started...there ws so much of obstacles...emotinally n mentaly..its ws to hard for me until i

could not bare to undergo de pain n missery...

Well c'mon...i noe form five life is tough bt mine ws rather diff...its ws not bout

havin emotional challenges but its something else dat bothered me....well i dun

even wan to write it here...i dunno y but things lik backstabbing, unthruthfulness,

envy, greed n few negative traits has really affected me.....i ws really down...my

frens until today i would still name them as a fren eventhough they had hurt my

feelings...all tis ended really badly wen i got my results..i ws devastated...dunno wut to do, where to

go...i ws lost...damn f#*ked up ..!!!huh..!! but exams ws

over...tats ws a relief man...!!

Since small i always wanted to become an engineer...carry de IR.

ttitle in front of my name...but becoz of my results..well kinda bad..bt not to bad

lar....ppl started to tell me..'owwh u kenot lar.." 'damn tough lar" " dun waste ur

time lar"....man !!! if u r in my position wut wil u do....but de only person

understood me ws dad...he belived in me...he said.."pursue wut ur heart feels.."

now..since i've been accepted in MMU cyberjaya...all i need to do is study study

study !!!! well wut u expect..ha3...another gud news is my cousin sis wans to stay

wit me...? de only thing is i'm worried, guys gonna chase after me for her no. al...

dunno wut am i gonna do....

My dream is to become somebody...who drives a car worth half a million,

comes back home relax.....go to work n organise stuffs...run corporate meetings n

clients..do the big stuffs u noe...gring back a 7 figure or a 6 figure salary...

not a posh lifestyle wut jz nice n simple...den de gal of my dreams...i've listed 276

thigs i wan to do wen i'm alive...u bet i'm gonna do it al..!!!

my mum's dream, dad's hope n my two angels faith lies on my future...

tis is wut i'm gonna do...n i'm gonna fullfil it...!!!!!!

a busy day....

2009-03-17T09:14:00.001-07:00

COOL HUH !

dad woke me up early in da morning n asked me to follow him to office...i ws lik..;huh?..

he forced me, since i ws bored so i agreed lar..

but real prob started wen he brought me to office i asked me to work wit him..damn..! but then

slowly i begin to lik it as i ws still learning ma..so names like..'premiums', sanctions' mc,cc ol

forms were kinda new lik wut oni..but nah...i always liked de idea of sitting in a office u noe wut i mean..anyways..den he asked me to go to de post office n began to rain heavily...it rains lik

kucing dan anjing here..on de road i saw dis ..wut u called a flock izzit..a flock of ayam serama(

short chickens) on a car...in other places u can see pigeons but in trg u can see ayam serama... tis

i hav to post it u guys..check those chickens out...

well so i spent time filling forms meeting dad's clients..learnt lots of stuffs...actually i realised dat

there's always a way to something if ur faith is there...my dad always been a role model to

me..his style, his talks, personality...i mean his my superman.! but somethings i do get angry n

al..but hey..as i always say blood is thicker than water rite...so sambung cerita

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eh..apa lg sudah abis lar....

mau lg ka..

byr lar,.....!!!

he3 he3...

HIT THE GYM..!!!

2009-03-16T00:53:00.000-07:00

over the years, since i ws a smal kid ppl use to tease me i ws fat n chubby...wel at dat time i only smile n laughed, barely to take notice....
but when it came to my adolescence period....de teasing grew as i agrew wider...i sometimes get fed up wit ppl's bz body attitudes... jz fo fcuked up everyone...even the ones i loved turn me away coz i ws fat. even my cousin fills up de blank..' u should ....... some weight n stuffs'.....the most i got hurt wen my best girl friend is ashamed of who i am n avoid ppl to noe she's communicating with me...FINE...!!

i dun giv a damn..but i realise something i needed to understand dat noe one is perfect..but I'M PERFECT TO A CERTAIN EXTANT....FATS ARE JZ molecules dat forms lump to wut u eat...dat does't makes u a jerk or a biatch rite.! anyway...i needed to prove to myself dat i can do anythin..not jz to prove ppl who'd teased me throughout my life...ITS JZ ME...!!!!

started working out in the gym wit my buddy... jz started three months...its becoming a passion as i workout three times a week...feeling confident n more brave...trust me it does not only builds up ur muscle but ur self-esteem too... now if anyone comes up to me n......ha3 they are toast..!

my dumbells....!!!

LIVERPOOL WINS MANCHEATER UNITED..!!!

2009-03-15T23:54:00.000-07:00

LIVERPOOL WINS MANCHEATER UNITED..!!!

ha3...after all the boasting from MU fans...i think tis is the beat shot for their fans...it ws no one goal but FOUR...!!!! ha3 i ws de happiest man on earth...i watched de game in mayang village which ws de hot spots in kay tee 2 watch epl games..tis time went out wit ma cousins n my frens...damn de first half liverpool ws not in control of the ball..even de stupid gav a non relevant penalty n goaled by 'cristin ronaldildo'...den came..our star player..torres who gav a beautiful goal...thats wut we call footbal man..not some kindagarten boys simply falling down on penalty boxes...

HA HA HA... check these are some pics taken on fields...

THATS RITE BABY..!!! FERNANDO TORRES.....

DUN CRY LITTLE FERGIE....HU3

U GO MAN....!!!!

TIS IS FOOTBAL..!!!!(check out man u fans..)

and these are some events took place in de restaurant...

my fren suraj sure noes who's de man..!!!!

pity my cousin shohael...!! 'great MU fan'..ha3...too sad ridy..

FANS !!!!!

the guys even bought me a cake....wen they started singing de birthday song, de whole restaurant started singing too, wut can i say more tis ws my best 18th birthday.!!! liverpool victory adds to my presents list..!!!

liverpool fans for life...!!!! the kop devils....

MY BIRTHDAY...!!!!!

2009-03-13T01:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY......TO ME..

i always tot....dat birthdays are jz the numbers of years which remind you the day u were born...but many of us fail to remember dat..our birthday is the day.. mothers had her labour pain..she was in so much pain and dad ws worried like hell bout mother..as i ws the first child in my family...i ws born on 13th march 1991 which ws 18 years back..MAN!...wut a journey of life..now i"m here in front of my new 'LAPTOP' creating my post...i realised dat..no matter wut i do i can't redeem my mum sacrifice for me...i'm jz thankful to God as i hav a mother who gives me unlimited love and care...a dad whom supports me to the max...no matter wut i enrol in..he's my backbone.....well wut can i say .....life is beautifull........

ps: check out my new birthday present its a brand new ACER ASPIRE laptop...he3...

AND HEY...!!!!....I'M LEGALLY 18..!! WOW...TIS MEANS...HE3.....

MC D!!!!!!

2009-03-03T03:55:00.000-08:00

HA3...ITS BEEN FEW MONTHS SINCE I SEEN MY FRENS ESPECIALLY SOOK YEE WHEN SHE CALEED ME OUT FOR MKN..SOOK HAS BEEN MY FRENS SINCE TADIKA...SO IT ADDS UP TO 13 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP...COOL NAH..ANYWAYS THESE ARE SOME PICS WE TOOK...

cousinz

2009-03-03T03:31:00.000-08:00

this my dad's side..we created a futsal team an played during deepavalli and our group name is named after our late grandfather 's.kali' ( s.kalimuthu)

the fact my family is cinsisting of four gnerations still shockes everyone who heras bout it....yup i hav more than 40 cousins n 28 nieces n nephews...a big number rite...dats y i'm always proud to be who i am...with cousin i hav so much fun together...u noe al typical teenage stuffs,,,n not forgetting becoming naughty..he3..but al tis memories n experiences i gain with my cousin has given me a taste of actual life when socialisng...well theres always sweets n sours...but i always trust that 'blood is thicker tan water'...i really do miss all of them...on my mum's side guys are minority, so the guys are only me, vikna arun and muvain...i mean the teens lar..vikna is kinda old ridy but nah...he's the hero of de family..i;m sort of his side-kick...ha3..neway back to the main picture..my cousins on my fathers side is more to wut i would like to call the ' THE BOLD AND BEAUTIFUL'...he3, its because my dad's side cousins are actual super modals, medical students, engineers, actresses, singers..u name it...not to boast or anything but MY FAMILY ROCKS !!!!! HE3

well.....tis is my mum's side cousins.....maybe some of u might cracking ur brains..why is tis fella posting bout is family...i got one reason for that....I'M PROUND OF MY FAMILY...! HARI OM.....

2009-03-02T05:58:00.000-08:00

learnt guitar........

my uniform.......

PROGRAM LATIHAN KHIDMAT NEGARA

national service change a lot in me...i even became interested in becoming an aviation engineer...join malaysian royal air force and stuffs.... made so new frens...most importantly i got back my inner strength....!!!!

2009-03-02T05:25:00.000-08:00

my journey......

2009-03-02T04:41:00.000-08:00

I've was away from home for 2 an a half months.....was undergoing government's special force training....the days past by very quickly but it was painful for me to go through those days...i suffered a major blow in my life when the person i cared most in my life hurt my feelings badly..i was devastated, heart broken, it was merely close for me to fall sick...i was lost..i dunno why this happened to me but i was in a bad shape...and i mean really in a BAD shape...but slowly i tried to heal myself...regaining sanity in my life...i picked up some courage a long with some hope...i convince and forced myself to look at things on the bright side....besides there is more better person i'll meet in the future, yet my thoughts is always on that particular person whom once i believed she was the one...but fate has played me.....she left me alone....