MisH u kuTtY.........

Its been almost a month now........

its has been quite since.......

my phone seems lifeless which it use to be on the 24 hours....

things are very different now da.......everybody seems to be changing....

the only person i trusted ws u............but now even u left me to be with the gods.....

how selfish can i be to keep an angel down here with me.!

u deserve to be up there..........its jz dat i got no one to talk to......

the ppl i trusted the most turning their back against me......

i ws so confident cause i had my shivu kutty...............but now...

i noe somewhere up there...u r looking at me n smiling.......

i reli mish u syng.....

i dunno whether i can continue like this or not......ppl might say i'm goin mad...

but u noe wut da, i dun reli care........eventhough i can;t see u....i noe u r beside me...wherever i go...haha....

no matter how old i grow.......its jz that...i dun understand how cruel god can be.....he gives us something so precious n so wonderful......n he takes it back....

we al miss u da........whenever the sun goes down.....the moonlight shines....

i see u high up in the sky shinning lik a diamond...........

hope the gods are taking care of u...........

they betta be........

R.I.P

In Loving Memory of my

shivu kutty.....

I wIsH u WeRe MiNe............

Dear baby gal,

i know u must be thinking this guy is such an idiot?? what is he thinking??

well the truth is...i i think about i you.........

i dunno wut to do........wut more can i do........

ur love for him is way beyond me....
i know it.......
i can't be jealous of coz.....................but its jz not right,
something is wrong somewhere.......
whenever u say u miss him,
it pricks me that the amount of love u have for him...he's always been there sweetheart, with u in ur heart, no matter wut people say...u can't throw him.....
i know how much he matters to u, n i dun care wut ppl got to say bout tis....its between the three of us, my love is not limited towards u, u noe
besides the fact i'm in love wit u, i in love wit ur dreams, ur joy, ur sorrow, ur pain, ur gain,

UR LOVE.....

u of al people should understand how i feel......it jz hurts hearing me telling that u r hurt and it pains inside u.......i can't bear this any longer.....i would neva let u suffer nor get hurt again by any means.........

i'm jz so sorry i'd entered ur life........things would hav seen less complicated......things are so difficult for u now....

baby, i promise u....things will be better........thats my word for u sweetheart
i'm so sorry i made things complicated....i'm so sorry i made u cry....i'm sorry i din make ur day....
i guess u would be the last gal in my life if things dun work out properly...

how could i fall in love again...????

i'm jz sad bout the fact that u were not mine for me to get hold of u.......

"U PPL OUT THER..SHE'S NOT A TOY TO MESS AROUND WIT HER FEELINGS!"
"SHE AIN'T NO TOY.!"

i dunno wut am i thinking ryte now.....

"now hush lil baby dun u cry, everythings gonna be alryte....."~eminem(mocking bird)

exactly wuts running in ma head........now u need to focus on ur goal....n i promise u things will work out jz fine sweetheart.....

i promise.............. love u da

a leader in me.........

i'll still love u................idiot

a lost path............

its not the same anymore i guess..........well, u can expect more than wut u can get...dats called greediness......at times i use to wonder.....where did i go wrong showing love towards u......haha....well maybe it wsn't enuf i guess.....gave every possible thing i could......i dun wan u to realise in future dat u lost wut u always wanted...n i neva want that to happen to u...........listen to ur heart....pursue it.....n dun regret....as for me....i'll be fine......hahaha....its funny how i'm getting used to a broken heart.......its neva been fixed after all.........its jz dat...i'm already numb.....i noe u gonna say i'm n idiot....n yes i am one.....i dun need ppl to tell how much i care for u n love u.....as u should already noe......its jz dat....i'm jinxed to love...... whoever i like, i end up hurting myself...i'm not asking a replacement............as no one can replace u......i'm jz hurt dats al......dun worry bout me......i'll do fine......its k i'm not urs now........pls gimme a chance to be.....if i'm born again.....u took away my love, if u would have asked.....i would have given my life...........nvm....can change the truth nah......truth hurts does it............i wanted to stay away from tis...dats y i avoided u....coz i noe....u'll get confuse easily......haha...u neva listen will u......but its k......

i guess.........my chapter ends here in ur life book........

i LoVe YoU

Many say love is blind.....i say love gives u a clearer vision about achieving........its been a while now since i heard ur voice da....its been hard for the both of us trying to achieve our goals of life...trying to satisfy the community and the world........

well i'm against the world.....

dunno whether i'm saying these jz to calm myself or jz to get things right on track......the day i saw u..i made a vow.....a vow to love u, to stand by ur side, to be there for u..... u wanted to achieve ur dream...well wut more can i say, ur dream is mine too...isn't it..??

the moments we spent together was so beautiful.....i dunno whether u still remember the time we made havoc in the theaters, we laugh lik mad....we use to say things at the same time.weird na.....was fun...drama's in sunway, accidents, our first kiss, ............u really turned my world......a changed person i was...haha..was a great time...u were my friend.....my mother...my everything...we use to have hell lots of secrects na.?

Time....haha...time is a healer.....well maybe...maybe not...it depends on how we take it...its actually us the one heals our own soul...wen we are capable to let things out of our mind, we hav the same capability to keep it........i want to keep her in me.....

u were very different from any other girls i saw throughout my life....u were filled with ur own ideas n perception.....u were independent jz lik my mother...u had ur own attitude which made me go crazy....ur smile was meant to mealt many...... am i superman to repel such powers......i fell for you.... as in i was superman n u were my kryptonite (google it).....its funny how things end up after al...... din want it to end tis way.....maybe it was suppose to be....

some may ask me....y is she so selfish..?? she wants the best for her life...y r u getting on her way...the problem is its not her fault at al.....ppl may say things......but they are not living ur life....she went through hell b4 meeting me....cried n dried her tears with a wounded heart......her cries were ignored...wut did she do to deserve this....she suffered enough....she does not deserve to suffer again...human emotions can go to a certain extend but it has limits.....she needs to be pampered n treated well.....

she a very beautiful girl...very smart, sexy in her own way...eventhough she denies it...haha....inteligent n very naughty...........i really do miss her.....miss her shouting my ears off if i dun go for classes...cute arguments.......long hours on the phone.....discussing about our future..plans after plans.....things were fine actually.....................well i've got no comments for Mr. Fate, u son of a @%!$%........... U GOT NO GOD DAMN RIGHTS TO TREAT HER THIS WAY............!

i noe dat day wen i called u, i may hav said things i didn't mean to....i hurt ur feelings too...it makes me one of them rite sayang.....but i ws so hurt n i............sorry.. u r sick listening to these words nah....spare me will u...haha jz kiddin.... a jerk i was.... damn me..

u were always special to me....u crazy girl.......

Sweetheart, i've always been there for u....i dunno whether u felt it or not....but u couldn't had lied to me.......i noe u loved me...u still do....

i sacrificied my love for ur ambition.....hell yeah u have to fly abroad ok..!! u study smart....make me proud......i won't go anywhere...i'm here...

remember the time u ask me to promise u.......i keep my words....

no matter where u are..who u are.... i'll do anything to get u back in my life...i swear i'll come in ur life n sweep u off ur feet again......the words u uttered when u said u dun love me......its a lie....

baby i noe i'm there...u r jz ignoring me....its ok... u are doing this al for us....i'm not telling my love is the greatest in the world nor am i the guy whom sacrificed his love...

i'm jz a normal guy.....who yearns his love back......i want u back in any means.....i want to wrap you around my arms again....i wan to see u smile again....i wan to kiss u again......i loved u crazily...guess wut i'm still crazy bout you........

promise me u'll come back to me once u get wut u wanted...... i'll be there, waiting in the airport....for you.........


p/s i love you baby boo...........

Its that time of the year again........

Countdown all over the world begins......all over the continents, guys, girls kids n elderly couples eagerly await for the time to strike twelve.....painted face....funny glasses.....jz brings out the excitment in everyone.....the thing is the growing anxiety in everybody awaits as the countdown begins...10....9....8......7......5....

but before that.....jz pause there for a second...lets recap...how wonderful 2009 ws..wut can u say..u had a hell'of a year...but c'mon seriously......jz try to remember...how ws january.....wut u hav went through....

for me...new year ws celebrated in Kem Kisana Beach resort wer i had to perform my National Service stint...haha..wut a new year..but it ws a pretty good start....vowed to myself with many new year's resolution...(as if)

haha.....got my results...came back with my head bald...applied for MMU..b4 i could knew it..its my first day into University...things were so different back when i'm a freshie....

Now.....jz say out my name in MMU..(cheh perasan) he3....

al those public holidays past by....skool days frens framed into beautiful memories..deepavalli ws fun....typical family time.....

meet the girl of my dreams...baby boo.... i love u so much manggo...

xmas past by.....haha..can u believe it..... dayum! its already year end.....2009. My 2009 has its own sweet n sour but it ws seriously a memorable year...might be unlucky to some...but its up to u to make it a lucky year.....

nah! dun worry....jz sit back n relax wit a glass of beer a start the countdown..!! when u wake up the next morning its still the same morning...but....its rock tis new year eve..!!!its bloody 2010..tens bloody years since the millenium......

lets say good-bye 2009 and HELLO 2010..!!!!!

happy new year u guys....n u my baby boo...